Life so far has reminded me time and again that it's always better to keep to yourself. Maybe it's just me, but once I open up, I feel vulnerable and I get hurt. So I do what a snail does when it faces a threat: I retreat back into my shell. And I don't think I'll be coming out again any time soon.

Maybe that's why I don't socialise well most of the time; I always distance myself. Maybe it's a matter of numbing myself to the things around me. And recognising the fact that I am after all very small and insignificant. If anything were to happen, I won't be missed. Not like I've had a very positive impact on the people around me either. After I'm gone, there may be a hole (maybe not), but after a short while that hole will probably be filled; it won't be a very large hole anyway.

It's always better to be alone.

Life on this earth really is torturous sometimes. In such bad days I only wish God will take me away sooner. But clearly He isn't done with me yet. I don't know, guess I'll just have to wait.