I feel at peace in my heart about this decision, but I also feel a tinge of sadness. Firstly, now that I've made my decision, there is no way to undo it any longer. The finality of my choice is very apparent. Secondly, all this while I've always wanted to specialise in music, because I believed that it was what I love and what I can excel in. As the familiar phrase goes, "use your passion as your work, and you'll never have to work a single day of your life". It is amazing how my views have changed so drastically in the last few months. I do love music, yes. But I do not see myself chasing after it at every opportunity I chance upon. Most of the time, I need to feel like I'm in the mood for doing something related to music before doing it. That's why there is no way I will be able to live a happy life in my work with music by itself. Because what if one day, I don't feel like getting involved in music? What if, one day, I lose interest because music is my job? I certainly do not want that to happen.

Don't get me wrong. Music is a part of me. It has always been there since I could remember anything at all. That's precisely why I am not pursuing music at the tertiary level. I do not need to have a degree in music to call myself a musician. Music is who I am, it's part of what defines me, and even without an official profession, I definitely still am a proud musician. I will continue to read informative books and play music, just that I will not be doing it as part of my academic studies. It will be a leisure activity. This love will forever be there, and when the time comes, music will be there for me.

By accepting my offer to NTU I've closed many other doors: music, the sciences, etc. But accepting this offer also means opening a lot more doors for myself. I am looking forward to a wonderful time in my course, as well as in the USP. I'm sure it is going to be a memorable four years ahead.