Dear July,

It was a refreshing day for me. I had so many duties to fulfil in church; being a musician, teaching a class, leading a worship practice. But today was not like other days, where having so many things to do is an absolute burden to me. Today I experienced joy in my work for the Lord, and serving the Lord through so many platforms has given me an ultimate peace in my heart, even though there were simply too many things to think about.

As I taught my class today about relying on God's strength I found that I spoke better and taught the teens better in terms of my manner of speech and the way I delivered the lesson as a whole. I felt as if the words that came out of my mouth were not my own, and I can only point this to one thing: the Holy Spirit was working in me and empowering me to teach these young adults. There were instances during the lesson I did not even know where my mind was going, but God used my mouth as His instrument to reach out to them in a way I could never have done by myself. For that, I am truly grateful and amazed by God's sovereign power.

Lately I've been feeling so inadequate, so useless and so hopeless in my walk with God. I thought to myself that there is no way I can be of any use to God, much less lead a group of soul-searching teens. But today God showed me that inadequate as I may be, He can still use me. And He has. And I am so unspeakably thankful to God for choosing me of all people to be His servant. With all the things I've done, with all the regrets and scars that I have, God chose me. And I am so touched and so amazed with God's undying love and grace.

Thank you for today, July. Or rather, thank you Lord for July.