Dear July,

Today you taught me that it isn't that easy to keep the things you want in your life. There are some things that are worth keeping, that define who we are and help us to get through each and every day. But that doesn't mean these things will stay when you don't put in the effort to sustain them. One example is my love for music and playing the piano. After stopping my one-on-one lessons I don't think I've ever even touched the piano since. My younger brother probably plays the piano more than I do now. And it's a lingering mystery how I'm going to sustain my piano skills once I move into hall for university, since I most likely will have limited/no access to any piano there. The main reason for my lack of practice is that I did not put any effort into making sure I made music once in a while; in fact I was always procrastinating and telling myself I can do it tomorrow instead.

Today you taught me that there are people in my life who depend on me as much as I depend on them. Those are the people who are worth keeping and it's worth it to do as much as I can to make them stay. I have been neglecting some people in my life more than others and the realisation of it hurts quite a bit. I'm afraid that if I don't put in any effort soon enough, these people will slowly fade away from my life without my knowing. I'm afraid to know what I have to lose with these people.

Today I ventured into the public library to borrow some books related to my university course, to get ahead on a little reading so as to not be completely lost when lectures begin. The library is a sanctuary for peace and quiet and the abundance of books of all kinds gives me a sense of calmness I seldom get outside. I managed to borrow a few books related to my course and hopefully those will not bore me to death, if not I won't even know why I signed up for the course in the first place.