So this week is the last week of school before recess week, and so far it's been absolutely tiring and draining. I've had a lot to do for Hall Council, including interviews and info sessions - all of which last late into the night. And then after that I'll have to do my readings. So it's a tough week, with midterms and everything coming up as well. Even though I probably won't get much rest I can't wait for recess week so I can at least have a breather.

This week is especially tough because I encountered an incident which sparked something of a conflict between an acquaintance and I. It was just a small matter of miscommunication I think, and after explaining to each other I apologised and said to just let the matter pass, and she said okay. But afterwards it didn't really seem like she was "letting it pass", because other people I didn't really talk to suddenly knew about this small incident.

I'm someone who gets affected very easily by what other people say. I guess that's both a strength and a flaw; I can be very sensitive towards other people's feelings, yet I'm overly sensitive and try to please everyone if I can. So when this kind of thing happens, I become very angry and sad because I fear that someone doesn't like me and that other people would also start to not like me.

But I was reminded to be the bigger person - if I went to tell people how angry I am with her then how would that make me any better than her? Situations like this simply allow me to filter who my true friends really are. But sometimes it's tough to be the bigger person. Especially with someone as sensitive as me; it's definitely even more difficult because I feel so hurt inside. I chanced upon a quote on YY's Instagram though, which I thought was very apt in addressing what I was feeling:

Be soft.
Do not let the world make you hard.
Do not let pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of
the world may disagree, you still
believe it to be a beautiful place.
-- Kurt Vonnegut

This definitely helped me a lot in letting things go. Even recently when I bumped into her in the lift it was a bit awkward, but I definitely didn't feel that much anger or hatred any more. Hopefully this short period of suffering has made me stronger and a better person in general.

That aside, I really can't wait for the end of the week because it'll be a long-awaited good week of break! Also the following Monday is a holiday which makes it even better. Come faster end later!